Hi, my name is Jay. I'm 21. Senior engineering student in Portland, Oregon. I currently teach and work in a book store. I like to make art and sell crafts I make. This blog is a personal reflection of things I like, anecdotes about my life, things that inspire me, things that make me laugh, and all together just a blog to take some time away from my busy life. Check out my other blog for less tangential content.
tfw you accidentally text your mom “hey babe”
i fixed it by following up with “take a walk on the wild side”
My boyfriend/fiance is going back to Chicago to finish his schooling closer to home. I won’t see him except for visits until around May. I am so nervous to be without him for so long. Part of me knows that the distance won’t affect us negatively, but will hopefully make us stronger. Though, another part of me knows that he was one of the main reasons for keeping me motivated through college because he gave me something to look forward to at the end of the week. Now, I have to wait 8 months to look forward to seeing him. At least when I graduate in May we’ll be getting married in July - in 363 days from now, which means we will be together for good. I’m really excited, nervous, and scared. I feel like this summer went by too fast and I’m sure we’ve done everything we wanted to do in Portland yet. And, I know this will be my last year in Portland before I move to Chicago after we get married. When I think about that, I start to worry about my FE exam, graduating, finding a stable job in Chicago as an engineer or EIT until I get my PE, and then finding a place to live. Everything starts to zoom into the future and my anxiety starts to get really bad. I’m not sure what to do. I haven’t felt like this in a while, which is why I haven’t been ranting as much on here, but I’m feeling overwhelmed. Hot weather, fiance leaving, PMS, anxiety, and growing up do not go very well together.